Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Quarter-Life Crisis

BEING TWENTY-SOMETHING: They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and they aren't really cold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you. You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. If you want the rainbow you got to put up with the rain - Unknown

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Strapless sundress, kickin' back, no stress...

So this weekend was so great! Happy belated birthday America! Thursday night I went down to the Waterfront here in Burlington to watch the fireworks display. I kept proclaiming every few fireworks that "these are my FAVORITE kind!"

After the fireworks I got to see some friends that were up in town visiting for the weekend, two of which I haven't seen in about a year! It was so nice to catch up! On Friday the girls and I went out for brunch at Libby's Diner in Winooski and caused a scene laughing a little too loud and just being us. Later we cruised around the Greater Burlington Area being ridiculous, as we are prone to do. When we drove through downtown we happened to be playing our favorite sing-a-long songs, and it was hot, so clearly the windows were down. You can guess the rest. Church Street pedestrians heard what I'm sure was the BEST rendition of Brad Paisley's "Alcohol" they have ever heard in their lives. If you haven't heard it, click here to see the music video on YouTube so that you may understand the absurdity that IS our lives:

I'm getting so excited to head out to Dublin at the end of NEXT MONTH! I can't believe how fast it's coming up! I downloaded some Dropkick Murphy's songs today so that whenever I get excited about Dublin I can put them on and get even more pumped up! THIS is the video of my favorite song - You've probably heard it before, it's on the Departed soundtrack!

Here are some pictures of the room I'm living in this summer and Al's new kitten! His name is Barf Rocket. No, I'm not kidding. That's what it says on his tag. I can't bring myself to call him that because he's just so adorable. And since I'm the one who spends the most time with him around the apartment, I'm sure he thinks his name is simply "Kitty".

Kitty! I went and hunted down this toy that was hiding out in the living room that we had for the old cats. Kitty kept knocking all of my things off of my shelves and I decided he needed a less destructive play thing. Isn't he adorable?

He liked to play with tassels on the blanket I had hung as a bed skirt... When he finally ripped a thread and caused a big strain in the material I got mad and tucked it up under the mattress. What a rambunctious guy!

Plant holder - Free. Penelope the Plant - $8. I am awesome at decorating my college student room.

This little piece of happiness in my room cost me a grand total of about $3... candle not included.

My Room! That's old packing tape all over the wall from the previous subletter who thought that was the most genius way to hang posters. I used scotch tape... which I realize is bad for the paint, but at least it doesn't stay stuck on the wall!